Assorted Thoughts...

Wow its been a while. I hadn't even realized how long. So much going on. Had a wonderful vacation, met some new fantastic people, and rekindled my love and affection for some other good friends. Realized how amazing my growing circle of girlfriends are-to just say all of our titles wowed and amazed white ppl with limited exposure to black ppl. I returned to what I like to call wild jamaican typhoid fever (aka-a bad virus) and a dude who is going through a phase, a phase that involves disinterest in seeing or talking to me. Ok thats fine. One of my favorite ppl on earth passed away. We knew it was coming, it had been for some time, she had prepared us...but there is still something so abrupt about the passing of a loved one. So abrupt about the end of a life. No matter how far along you knew that it was coming. I'm going to miss her. She was one of the most genuine, positive people I have ever known. She was my mother's best friend, they've been friends longer then I have been alive. I always felt like they didn't talk enough, like they had put their friendship on the back burner in light of their families, spouses, other priorities. But when they got together or spoke they fell right back into the groove of their friendship-their particular, specific, personal ebb and flow. I am blessed to have friendships like that, the kinds that require little to no maintenance, they simply exist, because me and that other person have a chemistry or equilibrium that won't change simply because our circumstances change. Those relationships are invaluable and I weep for my mother having lost one of hers. Despite that heaviness, its good to see my parents. I think I missed them. Plus this will be a short and (bitter)sweet visit. I'm realizing i'm stretched really thin. So many obligations and i'm beginning to drop the ball a bit. I hate dropping the ball. I can't join anything else or accept a position doing anything else. At least not until I get all my current obligations into some managable schedule. Despite the tone of all this i'm actually in a good space/place. Yeah I am...promise.