The now....

I haven't written here in quite some time. Hey ya'll!!

Let's see last we spoke it was March right? I had just cut my hair, just cut him out of my life, and was all thinking of new beginnings and hope and light. Yeah I remember that.

Well now its May nearly June, I've cut my hair even shorter and found a stylist that does black hair, but cuts and applies color like white people. I heart him. Like seriously I might have a crush on my male but uber hetero stylist. He has a beard like W-C, wears chucks with slim cut 501s, and a white tee-oh and he drives an old chevy and leans like a cholo. Again, I love this man. And I adore the new cut. Its way shorter than I ever thought I would go. But somehow it fits (its only a week old I haven't even washed it yet, so this may all be premature).

Work is the bain of my existence. I'm ready for my rich husband already.

He has made his comeback routine...

****aside: I am watching the AI finale from last night and Carrie Underwood is working it right now. she got on her leather pants and boots and telling some nucca that he can kick rocks. I am loving her swag on this performance, America's sweetheart she is not right now. This song makes me want her to do an R&B album, it would be decidedly better then half the R&B chicks in the game right now.

...so yeah HE began reaching out a week or so ago. Informing me that he always comes back so, clearly, I should have just been patient since I knew he would be back. Surprisingly this only made me pity him. He really has no concept of how to love anyone other then himself-which is so sad. And really there is going to be some girl that is happy with his piece of love, it just wasn't me. Sadly because I was that girl that accepted his piece of love for so long, he doesn't quite believe, or can't conceive that I am done with him-he thinks its a bluff. But like one of my favorite movies Closer- "I don't love you anymore. Goodbye."

****Aside: SHE GOT A DONK, SHE GOT A DONK!! Umm Janet. Looking good girl. And this hair cut I dig it as well. Her face is so beautiful, and makeup so impeccable she could wear her hair anyway. Is she singing live? Is this Missy mixed with Nasty boys? Hawt. This catsuit....makes me want to get on treadmill right now. Sy Smith, one of the back up signers on Idol has been hype the whole show and was especially hype on this song. Janet should get a standing O for looking that good in that cat suit alone. Darn her.

I am thoroughly looking forward to this weekend. I have some great plans, some fun parties to attend, a new cut to show off, my car is clean rims shiny, I'm working from home tomorrow. All good things, all good things. Now i"m just ready for a good nights sleep.

As for all the philosophical stuff-this year I have seen some of the women that I adore and respect most in the world get engaged, plan weddings, and get married. I am so thrilled for them, so proud of them for being resilient and long suffering enough to work through relationship difficulties, and for having the foresight to recognize the gems in men they had found AFTER suffering many a fool. They give me hope, and I am endeared to them even more for that.